sheesh. this is getting harder every night. notice i don't use the word day. cause its reali the nights that are reali jia lat. i remember singing the song "unbreak my heart" by toni braxton the whole day. (note to self : post it on blog later)
it hurts, it hurts real bad. but what can i do? nothing i do can ease this pain. it's as though i called for it. everytime i step into a relationship, i gotta know that there may be a high possibility that i have to step out of it too. life is cruel, sometimes. all i can do is watch other couples be madly in love, in reel life or in reality, and give a sad smile to them.
love. a blessing or a curse? i kept asking myself, would i reali have wanted to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all? currently, it's a no for me. but oh well, perspectives on love change when one is in or out of it.
every minute of every day, when i'm alone, i think about him so much. no use telling me how useless it is, coz i know. but i just need to get over it. cut me some slack, at least for awhile.
funny thing is that i though that we would reali be together for eternity. that shows, one can never be too sure. the higher you set your expectations, the greater the fall. the best, don't set any expectations at all. haa! then there would still be others that say, den you are never gonna improve yourself. oh well. to each his own, like i always say.
sheesh. i've been quoting alot in today's post. anyway, tiring myself out day after day has been kinda useful. just that i'm so tired most of the time that i don't have the energy to attempt my aassignments that are piling up. man.. the readings and the essays and the things to do. never ending. two words : SLAVE DRIVERS.
the video clip is lovely. although it isn't the original toni braxton, this clip kinda brings back memories between me and him. ish. why am i reminiscing again? forget it. not going to again.
THAT LADYY
Name: God's princess
Age: 21
School: NTU
Church: JCC (:
D.O.B: 22nd Jan 1988
"trust no one, but yourself"
SHE WANTSY
to love God wholeheartedly
to be content
to go overseas to study
new life
to get a car
successful career
to be able to forget
QuotesY
"promise me that you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."
