ya right. go ahead God. make a spectacle of me. anyway, my life is in your hands what. no use fighting also. i'll always lose de. i surrender. it was yours to begin with, not mine. you know what? maybe, just maybe, you're laughing in amusement at my life now. a big HAHA.

you're just a big meanie. why? you want people to follow your ways, and if they are not, you SUBTLY push them towards your diection. at the end if the day, it's either your way or the highway. HAH! tyrant.

i mean, i understand if you're trying to make me see something, but i don't understand how you can constantly push me further and further down. it's already bad that i have to go through a breakup, but you had to put it in the middle of the exams, and you just have to add a little more of pains and hearthaches along the way of this two. brilliant. more like sadistic. i mean, you are God right? the one who knows everything, the one who takes care of us.. ya right.. you're carrying me on your shoulders now? sorry. i just can't see it, at all.

i'm sick of attributing everything nice and good to you. at the end of the day, do you appreciate it at all? no! why? cause it's not a priviledge, but rather a right for You. because you created us, hence all honour and respect and everything else should belong to you. HELLO? look around. as what SM says, the ones hurt the most are the ones who love you alot. why? the others get away scott free.

maybe i'm just a small creation of yours that you couldn't be bothered with. but in that case, why create me in the first place? to spread the word? if so, then i need to know that you are real first. if not, i'll just be like a fool like that. talking about something that seems non-existent.

i'm tired of all this crap already God. if you are really here, are you listening? you ask me to depend on you, but you need to be there first. how can i let go and fall if i dunno if someone else will catch me or not? if no one is there, then i'm just falling into thin air. and if i ever survive it, no one will console me, cause it's just stupidity on my part. for not ensuring there will be someone there to catch me.

Name: God's princess
Age: 21
School: NTU
Church: JCC (:
D.O.B: 22nd Jan 1988
"trust no one, but yourself"

to love God wholeheartedly
to be content
to go overseas to study
new life
to get a car
successful career
to be able to forget

"promise me that you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

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