ya. and that got me thinking. i didn't know the reason to that. it seems perfectly illogical. but yet, when i do it, i feel like its the best way. so how? who's in the wrong? technically speaking, only i'm involved, so the only person who can be wrong is myself. but why am i doing things like tt?

so that i don't hurt myself, coz i already preconditioned others and half of myself to think that he's like tt? i duno man.

is this called being in denial? it seems as though i'm more able to tolerate whatever he's doing already. i duno if its patience, or simply given up. hmm....

lots of things to think about man. plus, my hp issue is still NOT solved. SONY ERICSSON suck. seriously. this thing has been dragging on since like eternity.. GRR. ya. den i got my exams to handle, assignments to finish. ish. its gonna be a long 3 weeks till the exams end man. and i havne't told my parents about it coz they'll confirm nag and nag and nag for me to go and study de. oh well.. that's their job anyway.

so i can't reali give much thought to relationship problems now, but i do know that ken is slighty better. i think. but we're not together yet, as far as i'm concerned. mainly coz i duno if him treating me nice is gonna be a long term thing, or a spur of the moment thing. perhaps if he shows me that he truly loves me de, den i'll consider myself taken again ba. who knows?

now.. for the photos.

smile for the camera girls!! (: