sigh. i duno how also. somehow, if i get into trouble again, i don't expect any sympathy from anyone. yet, i can't help feeling that this is right. i wish i could be a small girl again, where all i believed was i could find true love somewhere and all these crap that i'm going through doesn't exist in real life. ha! there's a thought. dream on baby, dream on..
ken is reali nice at times. and i can see that he's making a real effort to change. but ... is this for real? guess i don't dare to find out, hence i'm so hesitant. trust. but dare i give him that all over again? i'm scared. real scared of the hurt that may come.. but.. if i don't, i know i'll regret it. so how?
i can't help but remember all the times we had. and its not like he's cheating on me. we just need alot of straightening out to do. and i believe him. and i still choose to think that he's not that bad after all. we all still need second chances, don't we? but.. prob is, i don't think he even wants this second chance.
God, where is my prince?
i feel so sad, and heavy-hearted. at this moment..