.Thursday, May 15, 2008 ' 8:38 AM Y
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man. i'm getting
tired. tired of what, you may ask. well..
tired of checking my handphone every freaking 5 mins to see if there's a msg from him, tired of pretending to glance at my hp to see if i have, by chance, a missed call from him (which is absolutely ridiculous of me, and of which he ever calls, it won't be a missed call because i'd be right on the phone as soon as he calls).. what am i thinking man? the guy is NOT gonna do anything about this stupid relationship anymore.
we're through! what more can be done!?! *slaps myself*
ish. i hate myself for thinking that it's possible that he tries to surprise me, one way or another. i'm sick of living it this way.
though today was much better. i didn't get any msg-es or calls for him, but i did spend my day quite nicely. totally hooked onto this book called
"remind me again why i need a man" by Claudia Carroll recommended by mindy. *applause* it reali got me off my miserable life for awhile. oh, and by the way, i said i wanted to start reading again right, and i did! so pleased with myself.
i finished..1) P.S I Love You
2) Ptolemy's Gate
3) White is for Magic
and i'm gonna complete my current book today. all these done withing a week i must say. lol. and mind you, Ptolemy's Gate was a super thick book! i should say at least 1500 pages? but of course,
i managed to finish it. duno why i have so much trouble with Norton though (my lit text that looks like a dictionary)
anyway, back to my stupid life. ugh. you know, yesterday night, i couldn't fall asleep,
as usual. but in the end when i woke up, a thought struck me. if Ken didn't want to go through bad times with me, then what makes him think that i'll go through bad times with him? i even went to the extent of thinking,
i'm hoping that he gets very very very rich, and has all the girls he wants. then he will realise that i loved him the most because i loved him when he was "poor", unlike when he is rich, and dunno if all the girls are attracted to his wealth or to him. that would
serve him right. hmmph.
had a great lesson on the end times at min hui's place today.
kudos to min hui for giving such a clear explanation. think she'll make a better teacher than me. had a good time laughing also, with familiar people and faces.
i'm hoping that tomorrow's chalet, i'll have a good time too. i'm kinda looking forward to that. somehow, at chalets,
one totally loses track of time, which is what i wanna do so much.
totally lost now. dunno what to think also.
oh ya. i managed to
iron my clothes today and i'm kinda pleased with myself.
anyway, i realise i dun have any pictures in any of my recent posts. shall upload pics of the chalet when i come back k? promise.
meanwhile,
hello lonliness, goodbye happiness for me!!
