.Sunday, May 11, 2008 ' 2:50 PM Y
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you know what? i've been thinking, as i always have.i'm gonna re-take charge of my life. i've been really bogged down by BGR issues. but come to think of it, i always knew what i wanted out of my dream guy, and i've decided i'm gonna get him, by hook or by crook. if i want a guy who treats me like a princess, then i'll make sure i'll find him. don't try and talk me out of it. save your words of practicality. i want to live my life this way. i woud rather always remember this "dream" that i have and aim towards it, and die striving towards it, rather than to settle for someone other than that, just because of the word "reality". sorry, not gonna happen anymore.i want the guy that sweeps me off my feet, every time. not some high flyer who can only think about his goals, his ideas etc.. and if i find that guy, i'm gonna love him and treasure him and he'll love me even more. and we're gonna be very very madly in love. don't say it's impossible because you haven't seen it happen. no one wants to try, and settle for less than they deserve, that's why it's not happening! you can't go wrong with that. but i'm gonna make this dream come true, or die trying.with all that's been happening right, i seemed to have lost track about this ideal that i had. i'm sick and tired of having to try so hard in a relationship. it should come naturally, and not through all these rough patches and trying to compromise and make your view be heard etc etc.. if that's the case, i might as well go join PAP or something. but what i want, as long as i can remember, is a guy who can give me all that i dreamed of, and perhaps even more. a guy who treats me right, and not like the crap that this thing called "life" is giving me. i want to be a princesss to the guy of my dreams, and i'm gonna hold on to that thought for as long as it takes.it just takes one to believe in something, or for someone to believe in you for that matter, and you can go very very far. i'm giving that guy out there a chance, and if that guy isn't ken, i'm not gonna try and force him to be my prince. i shall go out there, myself, and find that guy.a fairytale is what i deserve and i'll accept nothing less than that. i'll trust in God to help me fulfill this dream along the way. it's not very hard. as long as i know that i have God's backing, then nothng can go really really wrong. i still believe, among all things else, that this world is still full of miracles. me becoming a princess (of course, metaphorically speaking) is just another one.
dream big, and you'll be surprised at what you can achieve.i'm gonna be a princess and i'm gonna try and change the way things work, perhaps even in the world. but first, i gotta start out small with my life. i'm gonna try and use my life, to touch other people, and that way, i'm making a difference too. maybe not to the whole world, but at least to my world, to the people around me that i love and care about.i'm going to do this, with or without Ken..listen up people, i'm going to be a princess and it's NOT going to be just merely a dream. i'm going to wait for my prince to sweep me off my feet. minor setbacks here and there, but i'm confident that this WILL work. life is dreary and boring enough already. i have 2 choices, agree with that statement and live it life it is. or change it, and be that change. i choose the latter.i'm a PRINCESS without (or maybe, one day i will have) a tiara, but a princess nonetheless. (: i'm a princess in my right!
