.Thursday, May 29, 2008 ' 10:33 PM Y
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it took jun chong 2 years to realise how much i meant to him. well.. just wondering. how long will ken take? sigh.
after watching Narnia, i was thinking,
why doesn't God bring me up to heaven sooner? i reali wanna be in a place like Narnia. i hate this real world. i hate everything about this. HATE.
i feel, i've changed. changed to become a
more insecure, less confident, less happy, less content person. yups. downhill all the way. funny how my mum thinks that i've become a better person. lol. i think i mellowed down with her cause i felt like there was no point, hence, i shut up. but oh well. if she thinks its a better thing, then its better like that ba.
i've lost my zest for life. my thinking that i can change anything about this darned world afterall. ken managed to
destroy whatever was left of it.
with every door closed, i can only learn to be
smarter, more bitter, and less trusting. hah. and we wonder why adults behave the way they do. now i know. i can picture myself like my mum and dad already.
one ages pretty quickly after they get out of a relationship ba. tired-ness sinks in, everything else is a mess. wow.
a-m-a-z-i-n-g. not surprising though.
i'm losing it. my faith, hope, and trust. the things that mattered to me the most, since i was a young girl.
i suddenly feel so.. alone. the world is so vast, and i'm so puny. who cares? no one.
my head hurts, but my heart hurts even more. some one please send an angel to help me. i need help i guess.
goingmadsoon.
