.Thursday, May 8, 2008 ' 4:40 PM Y
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ok. great.
so now i'm deemed as childish. and guess who told me that? ya. my sis. so? she thinks she's reali mature now la! and the best part. there are people in church that agree with her.
see. there comes a point in a person's life where they feel they are useless in a society already, and usually that point is when they hit the sixities, but not me. i think i've already hit it. man. i'm so so mad at everyone, obviously including my sis.
the nights that she's been coming back late, who reprimanded her? no one. obviously not her darling parents who love her so much. i've totally lost all respect for my parents le. they are the ones who should be bringing up thier children right, and scolding them where they should be scolded, but nooo.. these two don't. the same can't be said for me though. one moment my mum is talking bad about my sister with me, the next, my sis is lying on her tummy and my mum is joking with her. thanks.
in case u didn't realise, i kinda see that as hypocrisy.which brings me to the next point. am i that childish? or bad? if the people i love and trust the most (ie, church people) can say these things about me, then what different are they from other societies in the world?
see. that's the problem. the more "unmasked" one is, the more vulnerable that person is too. you can't let ur guard down anywhere, not even in church.
ya. my thinking may be warped, but.. i duno la.
i still think i should run away and just get lost. perhaps start life fresh again. i will, when i have the chance.
my passion in life has sorta died here already. sigh. church. the place where there should be least politics.. man. gotta be weary of wherever i tread. gone were the days where one said something and people didn't judge you. gone were the days where one did something and there was no one to judge you. sorry man.
life is just.. crap. go ahead! try convincing me why life is beautiful.
la dolce vita indeed, like i said.. bleah. so far, nothing has convinced me enough that life is beautiful.
we all strive just to survive. what taught me these. people. everyone around me. childish. great. another thing to change again. a big whoopee! nawt. haiz. it's like i'm trying and trying to change for the people around me, and if u manage to correct one fault. they won't cut u slack, but rather, they'll make u try and correct more. and one would be judged more harshly on the latter.
ugh. duno if i can understand what i just typed. but all i know is that i'm irritated and frustrated and angry. why!!
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Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea A
nd frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
Little Jackie Paper loved that rascal Puff,
and brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff.
Oh
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on Puff's gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow whene'er they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flags when Puff roared out his name.
Oh
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, Jackie Paper came no more
And Puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar.
His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, Puff could not be brave,
So Puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave.
Oh
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called Honah Lee
on a sidenote. i reali love this song. to me, it shows the childlikenes of everyone, yet sooner or later, they have to face that reality, and puff the magic dragon would just eventually fade and become memories. but.. puff was eventually gone when his fren jackie paper stopped looking for him. *sobs* i still cry whenever i hear that bit. it brings back memories..
