.Friday, June 6, 2008 ' 10:33 AM Y
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ken, i miss you so much.
i think about you, all the time.
sometimes, i even hug my pillows,
my cushions, thinking that they'll have arms like yours,
and wrao me in their embrace.
that's how delusional i am.
that's how much you mean to me.
my whole world is falling apart.
i'm scared.
i'm scared to live life without you.
things were, happier, when u were around.
i longed for each day to come.
that was in the distant past.
now?
all we have were quarrells.
in the end, you finally backed out.
but still.
i miss you. so very much.
at times.
i feel like i can't even get through the next day.
tears flow like i just turned on a tap.
my tears used to mean so much to you.
you wiped every single drop.
just as your tears are to me.
my birthday present.
dragon tears.
remember?
or was that all only part of my memory?
i'm afraid to watch romance shows.
afraid to read love stories.
to even see couples pass me by.
where are you ken?
why won't you find me?
come back and find me, won't you?
please?
i love you.
