.Tuesday, June 3, 2008 ' 11:03 PM Y
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another session of whinning.
sigh. these past few days,
i've been having dreams of ken. guess he means that much to me ba. its as if i can't run away frm him. when i'm waking i think of him, when i'm sleeping, even then,
he won't let me off. i have to dream of him.
oh well. yesterday night's dream wasn't tt ideal either. we were on some tour group thingy, and he was supposed to be with me. but he ran off, and when i finally found him. he went,
i cannot do my own things ar. but still. i don't even wanna see him anywhere.
though i highly suspect tt he has
another girl outside. but ya.. like what mandy says, it doesn't really matter, does it. its over. but the
hurt is worse when he breaks up with me for another girl, that's what i feel. sigh.
life is kinda routine now. wake up, turn on the tv. watch, think of what to do in the afternoon, blog, do it what i intended to do, turn on the tv in the evening and then watch. occasionally i come online and dunno do what also.
exciting huh.
things could have been worse i guess. fortunately its my hols,
so i can mope all i want. on a lighter note, i've already lost 3kg. dunno how much more weight i can lose. girls. heed my advice. wanna lose weight? get involved in a break up. i'm serious. this is like a
living nightmare. i think today's the onli day where i had a proper lunch.
man.
i dunno when am i gonna see the light at the end of my tunnel. sorta running low on batteries now.
fortunately for people like
sab, mindy, mandy, min hui, ju, josel and charis, life's bearable i guess. i've got just enough energy to survive each day, but not much left to spare.
maybe if i'm better, i'll do baking tomorrow. maybe bake brownies for PJ people. it's already wednesday. hope the people have reached cambodia safely. gonna miss them.
dunno what to do for cell this week also. but i'm like soooo lethargic i dunno what to do. maybe gonna go blading later. maybe.
ken, happy that my life's a mess now?
ur work of art. ta-dah!
