The first pic of Laguna beach..
And i always will...
view from my chalet balcony
yours truly. (:
morning view of the beach
guess who dropped by for breakfast? tee hee.
missing the beautiful beach already..
gorgeous tanning ground
tanning!!
self explanatory
i'm so going back there again... (:
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there are so many other pictures.. but for me to upload them all would take a gazillion years.. how am i some of u may ask?
i'm doing ok. still missing ken alot. but there's nothing i can do about it except to concede defeat and bow out gracefully. at times, i panic, when i realise that he's not around, but then, there's always comfort knowing that my God, a far greater being, is somewhre out there. watching over me. and he wants the best for me. "my God is so great, so strong and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do.. " i guess that's the thought that keeps me going through every single day. it's tough. don't ask me how am i. coz i feel like crap sometimes. and if i tell u that, u'll feel awkward and not know how to continue the conversation.
for me to explain everything would be too tiring. coz everytime i explain, i have to give the full story. if not, its short changing either party. hence, pls try not to put me through this trouble. if i cry or i tear suddenly, dun freak out and start gathering around me. i dun want to entertain ppl. and frankly, the onli person i would like to comfort me, is not there, so others, pls dun try.
if not. if i'm happy, just let me be. know that if i smile, its a genuine smile. tired, sad, but genuine, and i would secretly, in my heart, thank God for that small little moments of happiness life brings. looking at things through the life of the little ones in nursery always brings joy to my life, albeit temporal, hence i love being with them... very much.
i was thinking the other day, what was my purpose in this world? why wouldn't God answer me that. but as i was walking... i saw the beautiful flowers and realised that that was it. my presence. the flowers that were swaying in the wind didn't know what their purpose on earth was for, but they help ppl like me, be reminded of God.. in every single aspect.
thank you for all your concern. (: i'll be fine. cut, hurt, bruised, but i'll be fine...