i drank enough chlorinated water to quench my thirst.

i swam enough laps to make myself numb.

i bathed long enough to cry all my tears that i've been holding back.

paintball was.. a bittersweet experience.

ken... i miss you so much. even if u don't, i do. i still wish, knowing that it would be against all odds, that you'd end up by my side again. can someone stop the pain that is in my heart for the longest time. please?

even if you don't care.. i do. i wanted so bad to ask if u got hurt. when you were alone, i wanted to strike up a conversation with you.. but, its so hard. i'm still thinking how can 2 people who were so in love with each other, can end up with nothing to say to each other after a simple breakup.

explain to me. please....

my heart is hurting so bad. i need to stop this pain. i reali need to. please tell me how. pls. i'm this close to giving up on myself. apparently, giving up on myself is much more easier than giving up on someone else.

the car ride was... a torture. tears flowed inncessantly.

i also dunno why i put myself through all this also. but after everything, i still can say that my feelings for u still hasn't changed. not one bit. i still love you every much as i did before our breakup. how can i find the strength to carry on doing stuff as if nothing happened? how?

let me just get over this pain and torture. let me go back to you. either that, or just let me perish.

_______

I'll never let you see
The way this broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride
And I know how to hide
All the sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for cloudy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know
That I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from Heaven
Could never wash away my misery
But since we're not together
I look for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you never see

Some day when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But 'til then darling you'll
Never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain....

Name: God's princess
Age: 21
School: NTU
Church: JCC (:
D.O.B: 22nd Jan 1988
"trust no one, but yourself"

to love God wholeheartedly
to be content
to go overseas to study
new life
to get a car
successful career
to be able to forget

"promise me that you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

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