.Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ' 4:37 AM Y
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been reali down this past few days. don't feel like doing anything and all i can do is look depressed. haiz... dunno what's wrong with me also. like, get a life, can?
this is so not gonna work. keep trying to tell myself that my assignments are due and i NEED to do something soon, if not, i can forget about going overseas to study le. grr. when am i going to wake up man. my resolve... i better find it soon. reali reali soon, before i die of being a crappy loser or something. ugh. feel so disgusted with myself. all i am capable of is whinning and complaining and being lethargic. gonna do smth abt it soon.
on a lighter note. french was enjoyable today. pascal made it quite a fun lesson, since it was the hols and everything. i had to read the homework given to the class and i nearly died!! guess what the teacher said, i'm a drama mama. rofl. no surprise there. (:
homework, readings, church stuff, assignments, school, but why do i still feel so empty? meed to get rd of this void. finally finished reading cholera though. whoa. super super draggy book. quite inspirational, but draggy nonetheless. next up. written on the body. den essays, essays, essays..
God help me man. i'm so gonna need it.
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on a side note, i was thinking, people always say i talk very fast. so here's an attempt at an explanation. if u think i'm talking fast, my brain is thinking way faster than that. i talk fast so as to catch up with what i'm saying. if not, that idea would just pass me by, and i'm like shoots, what was i trying to say just now. i also want to try to think slower, but my brain apparently doesn't allow that. hence, also, sometimes, whatver i say doesn't reali make much sense. coz i'm so busy trying to catch what my brain is saying that i can't reali filter the sense from the non-sense. so there. an attempt at an explanation.
*i thought about jerome just now. the one in kindegarten. he still remembers me, and so does peter. that always brings a smile to my face. always.
