.Wednesday, September 17, 2008 ' 10:42 AM Y
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i need to get you out of my mind and stop letting u affect me. ur unseen prsence is felt. its either a reali sad case, or reali scary.
sigh. the ghost of u still keeps haunting me. get lost and leave me alone, will you. sigh. this is coming out way too harsh. all i know is that i still think about you, and i desperately need to rid u and memories of us out of my mind. i'm still wishing for a concussion occasionally. i'm even afraid of going on msn. haiz. doing all i can to avoid u already, but it seems that the more i run away, the clearer ur face is.
have been toying with the idea of waiting... alot of things that has to do with me now involves waiting. and i get a feelin God is trying to tell me smth abt tt. but i dun wanna read the wrong signals again. i've had enough of being so sure, and then realise that i've been sure, of the wrong thing. its so me.
fortunately God is there to make up for the weaknesses i have. and i believe that if i stay close beside him, he'll just lead me. and the best thing? i dun even need to think. i'll just have to follow. and.. i'll get to know what god knows. its so romantic. like both our hearts beating as one. i'll see what he sees, feel what he feels.. it would be a priviledge to be able to see that day.
for you and your people, God, no one else..
