i was thinking as i cooked the sweet potato soup with ginger ofr my dad (he actually requested for it btw. my cooking skills aren't that bad afterall. haha) that actully, love is a reali reali complex thing.

u know, once, i thought that after marriage, all will be fine and dandy, apart from the usual quarrells. but no.. i was wrong. reality is not as such. there are such things as extra-marital affairs, and sometimes, even the most docile of men can go astray. and who can blame them? it is usually the nature of men to look for novelty etc...

so it's like, after the whole saga and torture of love, one further subjects themselves to another bout of heart-wrenching and finger biting days where they can never tell the future. man. don't we get enough of that just by hearing our frens' stories? now, to add on to the horrors, i wonn't be surprised if it happens to any of my loved ones. *touch wood though* why make ur life miserable? sooooo not worth it. it's just like moving from part 1 of heartbreak to part 2.

u know, its scary when i realise that everything i stood for starts to fall apart. its bad enough attaching the stigma of breakups to love, but now, infidelity to marriage? sigh. what is this world coming to man? can anyone hold to any belief system at all? in the past, what used to be taboo, has now changed. seldom things are condemned.

so what concrete-ness is there in love, or in marriage, or in anything associated with these 2 for that matter? there isn't. even ifu are married, there is a high probability that ur spouse might cheat on u, esp in the 20th c. but are u to blame them? if u urself have not lusted or oogled at some hot guy or cute chick whilst in a relationship, then u may cast the first stone. so how to resolve this conflict? or once again, is this conflict not meant to be resolved at all?

i'm disappointed in love, and soon, in marriage. what for man people? what for get urselves into this mess? u may come out half dead, or dead. very rarely one may emerge triumphant out of it. human nature vs God.
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don't ask me why i'm writing in this style. perhaps i still can't get out of essay mode. grr. oh well. beats being semi-emo. ha!

happy halloween peeps. (:

Name: God's princess
Age: 21
School: NTU
Church: JCC (:
D.O.B: 22nd Jan 1988
"trust no one, but yourself"

to love God wholeheartedly
to be content
to go overseas to study
new life
to get a car
successful career
to be able to forget

"promise me that you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

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