.Monday, November 3, 2008 ' 6:24 AM Y
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why don't you ever understand?
why can't we ever not quarrel?
why is there this constant gulf between us?
ur stubborness, or my over-sensitivness?
which is it?
someone pls tell me...
going mad with all these nonsense.
i've enough to stress about without u adding to my probs.
seriously, ur prob got my thinking the whole day.
and it's seriously none of my business.
but becasue i still love you,
that's why i bother to think..
no one in my predicament tt is in their right mind
would lend you that amount of cash.
reali.
go find another person in my situation...
and ask them.
but i still do.
the least i ask is for u to be a little nicer to me.
but no....
u decide to add on to everything.
'ever thot how dumb it would be to lend ur ex money,
to spend on his current gf?'
although u claim otherwise,
tt thot did cross my mind.
(u asked me not to trust u myself)
i'm not supposed to qn...
to follow ur current, perfect gf.
OMG. i'm seriously mad.
as in cuckoo mad.
i'm supposed to beg u to take the cash.
and i'm not allowed to say anything.
what's that all about?
what u want me to do?
i hate ur gf,
sorta hate u,
but i hate myself the most.
so tell me how to reconcile all these feelings?
whose fault?
there's so much pent up anger...
i myself am in the middle of all this confusion,
so how?
unlike u, there's no one to "sayang" me.
what the heck.
