.Thursday, February 19, 2009 ' 7:33 AM Y
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so many thoughts have ben running thru my mind lately.. i can't real pen tem them totally i guess. i'll write my private thoughts in my diary whist the more genric stuff i'll post here.
right now, i'm learning to be content with life and the things that come along with it. there's not much i ca do also. lols. and u know what? my mum's experiencing existential discourse now. how the tables have turned huh. i think ultimately, we still feel the same way about life, young or old. it's just tt the responses are quite different. when u'r a child, u'r allowed to make mistakes, when ur a teen, u've got t be more careful, when u'r a young adult, u realise tt decisions have consequences, and lastly, when u'r an adult, u realise tt u can't do anything most of the time because alot of things have already been more or less fixed.
i duno man. i seriously get disillusioned by life sometimes. trying hard to reali hold on to the values and the plans God made for me, but i gets hard coz we're constantly bombarded by things of this world. oh well.
i guess the best thing to do now is to be content with life. and get rid of as many memories asi can.. ish. sometimes i think i'm better off with a concussion or smth. den again, i would have made the same mistakes tt caused me hurt and pain, and i would have to live thru it all over again! oh man. the irony of this whole situation.
i think life itself is the biggest irony of all times. if i were to write a play on it, it'd probably turn out more tragic than hamlet, more coincidental than 12th night, more surreal than a midsummer's night dream, more screwed up than the merchant of venice, more entertaining than much ado about nothing and more heavy than richard the second. (if you didn't get it, these are ALL shakespeare's plays. he's totally amazing man.)
life, what to make out of it?! (i'm contented, but i can't help complaining also!)
