"rainy days and mondays always get me down.."
a LETHAL combination of these two is happening right now. it's a monday and its raining. i was thinking, i used to love rainy days.. what happened? i guess it was because in the past, when it was raining, i could just sleep in and forget about anything or everything that is happening outside the boundaries of my bedroom. but now? i'll just automatically get up, irregardless of te weather.
rain would be nice when u know u have someone to share it with. the lovely cooling weather, and the thought of somewhere, out there, there's a special someone missing u? and u cn text tt person telling them they're missed, etc.. lols. see? i'm still a hopeless romantic at heart. rainy days now just make me day-dream alot. and one knows that when i start doing stupid stuff like tt, my mind would tend to wander, ALOT. oh wells.
just couldn't concentrate on doing anything today. woke up, made a list of things that i was supposed to do today, which was alot of things, but ended having no mood to do anything. highly unproductive. hate the feeling that i know i've got many things to do, but i'm doing nothing about it. i wish i could walk away from the troubles in my life as easily as Craig David puts it. i'd be rid of endless essays, presentations, emotions, responsibilities, accountability, everything and anything. but life's never gonna be that easy huh.
i was just thinking the other day, i'm thankful God gave me the ability to think, but to the extent that i think about stuff, is that a little too much? hmm... but i'm not complaining, i'm just wondering. and not that i'm thinking reali brilliant stuff either. yea, i knoe. i just have to push these thoughts outta my head, and pray reali reali hard tt they never re-surface again. but isn't that in itself a form on escapism?
got 2 quotes from just watching abit of Tomb Raider and Matrix aired yesterday.
1)"to deny the thought of impulse is to deny the very existence of our humanity."
2)"i left not because i couldn't kill you, i left because i could.."
hmm.. gonna try to be a little more productive now. hope your monday's a little better than mine.