.Monday, April 6, 2009 ' 2:50 AM Y
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gosh.
its still the same huh.
was looking at sab's profile coz it had her wishlist there.
and then,
i saw that ken and her just became friends.
u know,
the fb that shows what's going on a person's wall?
ya.
and everything hit me,
again.
the sinking feeling in my stomach.
the feeling that i'm gonna get the runs,
it happens everytime i realise that he's still
around.
ya, i know.
how long am i going to delude myself?
for as long as possible.
if that ever reaches eternity,
i'll be happy to live in this bubble.
sigh.
it never ends huh.
mixed feelings towards him still..
dulling, but still, mixed.
i keep thinking,
and hoping,
that i've FULLY gotten over him.
but, fat chance of that happening man.
makes me really want to realise my dream
of getting out of this country.
all because of ONE guy.
ugh.
disgusted with myself most of the time.
to ken,
"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts"
yea. it does.
till now.
